Not feeling all that good right now. I knew I messed things up big time. I was hoping against hope that I would be forgiven and given another shot.
So at this last event I did I didn't know my main laptop had corrupt files. So it would work right making the Mix Deck Express not work right. The event was on Saturday and I found out on Thursday my partners father died on that Wednesday. So no getting him to to setup my backup laptop to use with the Mix Deck Express.
Honestly it was a horrible day and I looked terrible. I 've learned over the years to not beat myself up too much but it is what it is. The committee said they were giving someone else a shot because they were looking out for my physical health but I know the real truth.
It's just that for me after the event was over and we got back to my partners house My leg locked up so bad I couldn't walk. So no helping moving any gear. When I got back home it took me 10-15 minutes to get in the house. It's depressing to have that happen. Right now I just want some relief.
There is the retirement celebration to do on the 28th and right after that I got a wedding to do on May 12th. One of my sponsee sisters is getting married and she said I was her only choice. That made me feel good.
Last Sunday a member came up to me in a area service meeting saying he's getting married next September and he wants me to be the DJ. Another great shot in the arm. Especially since I rarely get someone looking that far in advance for me to do a wedding for them. Today I physically feel so so. Not bad nor good. I'm in the middle today. Just needed to vent. Thanks for reading.
So at this last event I did I didn't know my main laptop had corrupt files. So it would work right making the Mix Deck Express not work right. The event was on Saturday and I found out on Thursday my partners father died on that Wednesday. So no getting him to to setup my backup laptop to use with the Mix Deck Express.
Honestly it was a horrible day and I looked terrible. I 've learned over the years to not beat myself up too much but it is what it is. The committee said they were giving someone else a shot because they were looking out for my physical health but I know the real truth.
It's just that for me after the event was over and we got back to my partners house My leg locked up so bad I couldn't walk. So no helping moving any gear. When I got back home it took me 10-15 minutes to get in the house. It's depressing to have that happen. Right now I just want some relief.
There is the retirement celebration to do on the 28th and right after that I got a wedding to do on May 12th. One of my sponsee sisters is getting married and she said I was her only choice. That made me feel good.
Last Sunday a member came up to me in a area service meeting saying he's getting married next September and he wants me to be the DJ. Another great shot in the arm. Especially since I rarely get someone looking that far in advance for me to do a wedding for them. Today I physically feel so so. Not bad nor good. I'm in the middle today. Just needed to vent. Thanks for reading.